Devastated

I'm not really sure how to start this blog, other than once again, I've been in a crying fit. 1st: although I love them dearly and I knew they were trying for baby #2, I've learned that my sibling-in-laws are expecting. I'm happy because like I said I really do love them, but I can't help but have that feeling of "why not me?!". Not to mention we have yet to receive the results of the third SA and DH bloodwork. I may just have a breakdown if the results are not great. Not sure how much more I can take........... I've prayed, prayed, and prayed, not sure what else to