update

So I've been a little busy and haven't been updating here as I should, but here's the latest:

CD 13 which was July 3, I went in for a ultrasound and more bloodwork.  The tested LH surge, estidrol, and something else with bloodwork.  Everything came back normal!! For ultrasound they checked to make sure I responded to Clomid and did not have any cyst.  I had 3 follicles (YYYAAAAYYY) 1-20mm and 2-18mm on my right side and none on the left.  I was told to use OPK since they thought I would ovulate in next few days and to call when I got a positive and IUI would be the day after.  They also told me if I didn't get a positive OPK by Thursday to refill Rx they gave me for HcG shot.  Well Thursday morning came and no +OPK (BOOO) I went to CVS to have Rx filled.  It was $161!! Not only does infertility hurt emotionally, if insurance doesn't cover things it hurts your pockets as well. I went straight from CVS to RE and my nurse gave me the shot and IUI was schedule for Friday morning.  Now I'm not afraid of needles, but the aftermath was a very cruel joke lol.  The side effect was itching and soreness at the shot site.  Well it itched like crazy and every time I went to scratch, that's when I noticed the soreness(OUCH). Oh well, all for a good purpose.  I also had ovulation pain and alot of egg white cervical mucus(a good thing, I'll get to that later). Next up IUI!!!

Clomid

Yesterday was CD9 for me and my last dose of Clomid.  I took it Cd5-9 at approx. 6pm every night.  Nurse told me to try to keep taking it the same time everyday, which I did a really good job of keeping that up.  I took it in the evening hoping that if I did have any side effects I would sleep through them.  Well let's get to those side effects lol. It acutally wasn't too bad, CD 2, 3, and 5 I had light cramping, nothing serious, not even bad like period cramps.  CD 4 and 5 I had a few hot flashes during my sleep, but once again nothing that had me concerned or nervous.  CD 4 and 5 I also didn't sleep well, but not sure if that was the Clomid or just me.  I've heard of people having some side effects after the last dose, but so far nothing for me! I'm also just on CD10, so maybe that's why.  On Tuesday, which is CD 13, I go in for ultrasound and I  think bloodwork again. I will update after Tuesday's appointment:


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Day 3 testing

So on Friday morning I went in for my ultrasound and bloodwork.  The ultrasound went fine and I was able to meet one of the other Doctors at ACRM.  I had no cyst and everything looked normal!  Prior to going in, I had my blood taken, and was told I would get the results later in the day.  My mother is a nurse, so needles are NOT an issue for me.  My nurse was out, so the nurse that took my blood was so relieved that I was easy going on that part lol.  Even though I didn't have blood work results, I still walked out with Rx for clomid 50mg, but was told to wait until I received call for the instructions.  At about 1pm, the nurse called to inform me the my estrogen level was 29(from my understanding the lower the better) and I will start Clomid CD5-9.  There are 2 pills that must be taken at the same time.  She also informed me to try to take the pills at the same time everyday.  I asked if my over the counter allergy meds would be still ok to take.  She informed that it's fine(hey I just wanted to make sure!) and asked if I had any other questions.  I've decided that I will take my allergy and prenatal meds in the morning, my baby aspirin mid-day, and my clomid at about 6pm.  This way when I go to bed, if I do have any side effects, I will hopefully sleep through them(Well that's what I hope anyway). I will update either midway through clomid cycle or after I finish the cycle.....THIS IS MY MONTH!!!! I'm no longer worrying or having fear, I have faith and have left it in God's hands!

Here We Go!!

Today is CD1 and also day one of our journey to IUI and a healthy baby! I have my ultrasound appointment for tomorrow morning and have also set up my mid-cycle appointment.  Tomorrow I will have to do this appointment alone(even though I've had this test done before) since DH will be working and unable to get off.  I'm still kinda like OOOHHH HERE WE GO, but still praying and keeping happy thoughts.  The appointment tomorrow is just to have ultrasound to make sure I'm ok to start Clomid.  I will most likely get Rx tomorrow with instructions for the use of Clomid.  I have to say even though I'm still a little sad to see my AF this month, I'm still quite excited and nervous about the start of this much needed, anticapted and interesting journey we are now on.  It's been years in the making and we're finally at the "almost there" mark.  I will updated after appointment tomorrow!

Everything happens for a reason

Well a couple of months back I got really upset because we had to put off our IUI due to my DH horrible SA results. Well I forgot to post the new results, but everything was fine: 60 million little swimmers, shapes were normal, blodwork normal(can't remember everything)!! We were so happy and breathed a sigh of releif,but still no pregnancy! Well we've been going through the process of buying a home and I have to say this is so stressful. I just thought the other day if we had done the IUI when scheduled I would be putting this stress on myself and our baby! I guess my DH "not feeling" the testing that day was a blessing in disguise. We've been either out bid or sellers didn't want to agree to anything we wanted, plus going from home to home was just way too much. I'm glad to say we should be closing in about 3 weeks and we've decided to go on with IUI next month! By the time that rolls around, we will be closed and settle in to our new home, so NO stress just prayers and baby dust!!! So I know sometimes we try so hard to stay in control and plan out everything in our lives, but guess what "ish happens" and sometimes we need the ish to make the grass green :-)

Ever Wonder

It has come to the point that every time AF shows up i become extremely depressed. I just want to lock myself up in my room away from everyone and just scream and cry. I know this is not right or normal, but yet I can't help it. I start to wonder: what if I don't ovulate that month? what if the meds don't work? what if they find something during testing before I even get meds? What if I run out of eggs? what if we run out of money? what if we never can adopt? what if I never hear someone call me mommy? Sorry I this my be a little extreme, but anyone suffering from infertility knows you just need to vent sometimes. unless you gage a friend going through it with you, it can be very difficult.You don't want to burden people you know that are not going through IF, but yet you don't want to expose your greatest fears to strangers.

Devastated

I'm not really sure how to start this blog, other than once again, I've been in a crying fit. 1st: although I love them dearly and I knew they were trying for baby #2, I've learned that my sibling-in-laws are expecting. I'm happy because like I said I really do love them, but I can't help but have that feeling of "why not me?!". Not to mention we have yet to receive the results of the third SA and DH bloodwork. I may just have a breakdown if the results are not great. Not sure how much more I can take........... I've prayed, prayed, and prayed, not sure what else to